Okay. So my university team has our conference meet in the begining of february (4 weeks away!) down in Atlanta at Emory.
I really want to go.
I'm still injured.
My coach has said that when I'm able to do consistant flip turns and starts (ie, minimal to no pain) she'll put me in a meet.
I don't know when that's going to be.
I'm worried that if I'm not going to be swimming in the conference meet, she won't let me go and I'll miss one of the coolest experiences of my college life. That makes me sad, and hence the freaking out.
I mean, if she can only take a certain number of people and we're over the limit, I'd understand if she'd want me to stay home. But...if she has space to take me....I want her to!
I mean, I know I can't control the healing of my back. All I can do is dilligently do my rehab and swim as best I can. And hope, I guess.
I'm thinking of maybe going to see my coach during the day tomorrow to ask her about this....but...well...I'm not sure if it's a good idea, and I have no idea what to say!
Agh.......... I'm so upset.
