One more need to rant, sorry

Today I probably was charged $300 for a second opinion orthopedic surgeon to tell me that anyone over 50 will not feel pain from labral tears. He did not have me put on the tank top that the instructions mailed to me said to bring. He did not have me undress. He thus did not look at my shoulder and how my back is working/not working. He spent approximately 3 minutes with me. I will grant I have my "issues" and absolutely I have put my eggs into the swimming basket because it is the one exercise I have found that soothes me, connects me to others, makes me feel competent, and doesn't involve risk of broken bones (I'm a clutz). I can't swim because my shoulder blade has started hurting in a deep, throbbing way and pain radiates down inside and outside of my upper arm. I guess I should say I am going to have to stop swimming for a while because of these things, because I have been doing full workouts and swimming my fastest ever. The pain comes on after about 45 minutes. I have used fins and swum with tennis balls in my hands to get load off my shoulders. My back is now amazingly strong thanks to the "I, T, Y's" with weights, but I think my joint is still screwed up and I fear I am overcompensating for weak joint by using my scapula wrong. Sigh sigh sigh. There. Six months and counting. I do not believe over 50 is old. And I do think that if there are tears I am going to feel them. Perhaps I am wrong. I do think that this surgeon probably will get a bucketload of dinero for spending 3 minutes with me, after which I cried copiously for about 4 hours. Grrrrr. I am going to see someone who does scapular reeducation, not sure what that is, and I am going back to first surgeon and beg for mercy, because now even not swimming I am in rather a lot of pain. I love swimming. I love it. I love it. It is my love. OK. By the way, I wrote up "swim types" based on peoples' swim dreams. Once it has been printed in our regional newsletter perhaps I will post it here. I had rather a lot of fun. Thanks for you dreams. P.S. I don't like to think I am getting these brushoffs because I have Massachusetts's cheap-o-la insurance that is not accepted by the better doctors....