Ok, here it is. This takes a serious amount of courage for me to post this due to the obvious shame if feel here, but, I think it may help someone out there who is also experiencing the same type of situation..The following is an e-mail I wrote to Jim Thorton reaching out for him for guidance and help in this terrible time.
Jim:
I have not posted in two months now due to my severe depression. My wife of 25 years (whom I love dearly left me on 5 Aug.--no hope for our marriage). I attempted an honest crack at Jerry's way out that night...and one other time. So far this past two months I have spent one 12 day stint in the hospital and another week stint in the hospital attempting to deal with this very, very serious problem. To date, I have been unable to shake this thing. I see no hope for my life and frankly the pain and torment is so great that I really do not give a rat’s rear end about anything at this point. My problem is a simply one. I HATE being locked up..and all these units can do for guys like me is lock us up. Heck, I take Jerry's way any day to the padded cell stuff.
Any suggestions. Currently I am on Celexa and the pain and suffering are horrendous to say the least.
Kindest regards,
Tom Ellison
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Former Member
Depression caused by inbalance, family situation, job or whatever is more disabling than a broken leg. Like swimming through mud uphill.
We Say Again
we are not your doctor. Treat everything said here with caution, and see your doctor!
With that said
When I was found single many moons ago
1. I became a PT monster. Then I was too tired at the end of the day to care about depression. Helps attracting the oppsite sex.
2. Get involved with something bigger than yourself. You have knowledge and experience (even painting a house for a disabled person, Drive a bus for a sunday school in the poor section of town) There is no shortage of work. Is a shortage of workers.
3. If you do not pray Start. If you do do more
4. By doing the above you will live well and that is the best revenge. This way the person who left you eat's their heart out. Takes a few years but it works.
5. Don't brag if you do refer to item #5.
I evaluated why I was single and found I basicly was a self serving legond in my own mind. Still am but I nolonger deny it.
Depression caused by inbalance, family situation, job or whatever is more disabling than a broken leg. Like swimming through mud uphill.
We Say Again
we are not your doctor. Treat everything said here with caution, and see your doctor!
With that said
When I was found single many moons ago
1. I became a PT monster. Then I was too tired at the end of the day to care about depression. Helps attracting the oppsite sex.
2. Get involved with something bigger than yourself. You have knowledge and experience (even painting a house for a disabled person, Drive a bus for a sunday school in the poor section of town) There is no shortage of work. Is a shortage of workers.
3. If you do not pray Start. If you do do more
4. By doing the above you will live well and that is the best revenge. This way the person who left you eat's their heart out. Takes a few years but it works.
5. Don't brag if you do refer to item #5.
I evaluated why I was single and found I basicly was a self serving legond in my own mind. Still am but I nolonger deny it.
