Ok, here it is. This takes a serious amount of courage for me to post this due to the obvious shame if feel here, but, I think it may help someone out there who is also experiencing the same type of situation..The following is an e-mail I wrote to Jim Thorton reaching out for him for guidance and help in this terrible time.
Jim:
I have not posted in two months now due to my severe depression. My wife of 25 years (whom I love dearly left me on 5 Aug.--no hope for our marriage). I attempted an honest crack at Jerry's way out that night...and one other time. So far this past two months I have spent one 12 day stint in the hospital and another week stint in the hospital attempting to deal with this very, very serious problem. To date, I have been unable to shake this thing. I see no hope for my life and frankly the pain and torment is so great that I really do not give a rat’s rear end about anything at this point. My problem is a simply one. I HATE being locked up..and all these units can do for guys like me is lock us up. Heck, I take Jerry's way any day to the padded cell stuff.
Any suggestions. Currently I am on Celexa and the pain and suffering are horrendous to say the least.
Kindest regards,
Tom Ellison
Excellent advice, Kat.
I would like to add another strategy to place after Do Nothing (which is paradoxically quite effective.) That is Do Something as in Do Something you used to find fun, even if it isn't terribly fun right now. If you can get caught up in a distracting activity, even for just a little while, it can work like a splint on a broken bone, giving a little pressure reduction and healing time.
Music, movies, sports, reading, computer programming, doing arcane math problems! Anything that provides a break from obsessive and negative thoughts is worth doing. You might find you even start having a tiny bit of fun.
Excellent advice, Kat.
I would like to add another strategy to place after Do Nothing (which is paradoxically quite effective.) That is Do Something as in Do Something you used to find fun, even if it isn't terribly fun right now. If you can get caught up in a distracting activity, even for just a little while, it can work like a splint on a broken bone, giving a little pressure reduction and healing time.
Music, movies, sports, reading, computer programming, doing arcane math problems! Anything that provides a break from obsessive and negative thoughts is worth doing. You might find you even start having a tiny bit of fun.
